TruthSeekers

*Reference to the true God here is Elohim,  reference to god (lower case g) is the man made god, idol, god of the masons or any other sect. Reference to Yashuah is the true savior and jesus or christ from the greek.

I am thankful there is a place on the web for those who seek the true Yashuah.  I was born into non-practising Catholic family who were indifferent to God or bordered on downright hatred of him.  This indifference and refusal to accept his love resulted in a disjointed, self serving, and depraved family unit. My three sisters and I were caught in the middle of this battle.  I was fortunate enough to escape.

Now that I am older the frequent argument against a loving God (Elohim) I hear from agnostics is if he is so loving why do bad things happen to innocent children and good people? The answer to this question is I am not sure, but I do know this, to live in on the side of hatred and outright defiance to him will bring destruction. I have seen this with my own eyes since I am one of the few who remain of my family. Most of my family are gone due to one reason or the other. This is life and it is short. This place is not our home. Even so this is not my point, nor do I serve him out of fear. He was there for me when everyone else was not and I serve him out of love. He sought me out first as the word states.

I knew him from a young age although I did not understand how to live for him. I vowed to love him and somehow find him probably at the age of 8 or 9. This decision has caused me to be poineer and seeker of truth. I have been traveling this road along time. It has been the most joyess and heart breaking experience of my life because it requires one to cast aside all preconceived traditions of man.

It will show you exactly the nature of your character or lack thereof. The truth will pit you against your mother, father, sister and brother. It will reveal how weak, depraved, and egotistical you are. It will tear you down to the utter core of your being and rebuild you from the bottom floor up. Just when you think you have a firm foundation it will crumble again or it will need a repair in one of the walls.  It will bring you to your knees and raise you up to the greater heights. The truth will set you free!

To serve the one true God in truth is worth everything. Everything else is vanity. I am now 47 years old and have just learned about Paul. As I see I am made aware of how much more there is to learn and the adventure continues. It will not end until my last breath. If it does end then I have sat down and quit before the finish line.

I had nagging questions for years. Portions of Paul's letters seemed to me to contradict Yashua's teachings. At the time though I was deep in discovering that the "rapture of the church" was contrary to the truth. I was in a another moment in my life when it was crunch time so it would have to wait until later. I had to walk away from the false teaching I was in at that present moment and take a stand to serve the one true God in the portion he had shown me at that moment.  This was the day I came out of the Whore of Babylon. Very few if any of my family and friends understood. I was a back slider and forsaken by all my so called christian family.

Church was over for me. If you don't attend church services on Sunday here in the south you might as well be declaring yourself a heathen because you are labeled one. I would rather die a seeker of truth than a captive in bondage.

Since then I have been out on the fringes, but free and joyful. Recently a friend of ours started meetings to study God's (Elohim's) word. I attended knowing full well where it would lead me. I always live in the  hope that others will break free from the bondage of religion, but again it was not to be.  Reasoning with this individual using scripture, documented history, the Old Testiment, Hebrew, and cultural history led me once again nowhere. Why do they want to accept the lie instead of the truth?

I always knew I was not alone that there were many out there like me on the same journey as I am. We have been in clusters here and there, but the internet has brought us together. We may each be at different stages, but we all are on the same team.

Back to the story this friend tried to convince me this truth I have been shown is not really that important and agreed with much of it, but his reasoning is there is not much time left and we need to be winning souls. Winning souls to what? Did Yeshuah do this, no. If we are not guardians or at least witnesses that there is a true God (Elohim) then what is the purpose? Is it not our duty first to seek, prove and preserve the true message? Otherwise we are worse off than we were before. We are serving another Anti Christ. No thank you and I am not interested.

After two sleepless nights of documenting and praying for this person I presented my case.  His theory was once again it is the end result that is more important than the truth. The end result saying a little prayer of salvation and everything will be ok. I went home torn, sad, and frustrated . Was I being stubborn, was I crazy, and most of all was I the one being mislead? All the way home with tears streaming down my face I cried Lord if you are not who you have shown me and I am in deception show me beyond a shadow of a doubt! I began to think of Elisha and how he let the heathen pray to their false gods and nothing happened. Then Elisha prayed to the one true God (Elohim) and even had them throw water on the wood. God (Elohim) showed up and I cryed out I know you are the God (Elohim, and Yashuah) who sustained me through my childhood. I know you are my father! Show me that I am on the right path and lead me in your ways.

As I fell asleep that night I had a dream that a friend of mine invited me to their home for dinner. I gladly accepted. Once there everything seemed fine and we were having a good time chatting. Her children joined in the conversation. Nothing was unordinary just friends having a good visit.

All of sudden the young girl came up behind me as if to hug me but started choking me. At that moment I was overcome with fear, but knew it was too late. There was no way of escape. The jist of the dream was that I awoke in the dream to find I was held hostage and forced to adopt a new way of life. At first I protested, but being trapped there was no other choice. Promises were made of a better life. In the end I became like them. The promises did not come true. When they had accomplished their purpose they threw me out into the street and told me to find my way home. I was disoriented because nothing was familiar. Every land mark I remembered had been replaced. It was then I woke up in a cold sweat and kept hearing in my spirit (mind, soul), Their rock is not our Rock. Over and over again from Deuteronomy 32:1-43, the song of Moses.

I was trying to catch my breath trying and to wake up.  The covers looked like there had been a struggle. I was in the middle of the bed and not where I usually wake up every morning. I could not grasp if I was in the dream or here in my bed. It took me a few minutes to realize I was in my own bed. It had only been a dream. This time. 

The message was do not compromise the truth for nothing or no one or the lie will overtake you like a thief and then there will be no escape. In my dream they had cut off my eyelashes, pulled out chunks of my hair. They had disfigured me physically and then brainwashed me mentally. I asked for a definite answer and found got one.

I let my friend know that I would not be joining in future meetings. I have not heard back.  The silence speaks volumes. 

We who have been shown the light are accountable to protect it. We are to search it out as the spirit leads us. I have been lead to the truth by so many different forms. The Holy Spirit has used movies, nature, people, and even bill boards to spark a thought  and that has led to truth. Learn to hear his voice and trust it.  This will give you the confidence to proceed. If you don't have it pray and ask for it. Ask for it and pray anyways for all guidance.  Don't ever get to the point you think you know it all because when you think this you will fall. If you do fall do not give up or sit there, ask for forgiveness, repent, and ask for his knowledge to show you where you went wrong and which way to proceed next. 

Everyone of us will fall at some point or stumble.  We will grow weary. With me I went through a period of time I just laid down because I felt like If I did I could rest in this spot I would not be beat up in the fight. Play dead and the bear will not eat you. I said ok I'm going to sit here because I can't go on. I'm going to take a break and relax. Danger get back up. Then I heard...You can't or you will not? That is the worst move you can make.  When you lay down you become complacent then apathetic and then down hill from there. Get up you are a child of God. When you do not give up he will renew your strength. 

 This is our life long journey. Some are blind by choice some not by choice.  I don't understand why some hear and see and some do not. I am not God and for this I am thankful. I would stink at it particularly on my grumpy days.  I am not the judge either another relief.  People who make themselves the judge start to dislike people in general. I did that once and noticed a general dislike for people growing to the point it would be annoying to be around them. One day it grew into full bloom. Then I realized these people I that I don't like the ones annoying me are all creations of Elohim. I had to ask forgiveness and repent again. Then the love began to come back and compassion.

Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal your ugly motives and feelings we all deny we have. Knowing or seeing your weakness is strength. Thinking you are strong, or nobel when in reality our motives are masked by our egos is dangerous. 

When Yashuah has humbled me I have mourned over the ones who do not see the truth. I have asked him to help me not be a stumbling block.  I have tried to share the truth only to be lamblasted with hatred and I have continued to seek.

Even good intentions can backfire. I have learned there is a time to speak and a time to be quiet, but do not give up. Your live is part of a complex system. Others are watching you and our actions affect more than ourselves.

God has been my father, mother, sister, brother and friend. He has loved me and provided my every need. Why would I forsake that for the depravity that a  life of delusion leads? What if I have lived the truth and now go back to a lie.  This sobers me. I lived in the lie and sorrow in my childhood and do not care to return there.

We now live in the year 2010 so there is 2000 years of time to sort through and determine fact from fiction.  We are but a grain of sand in history. So many events took place before we came to live here. I read that there are presently 28,000 denominations. 

It seems daunting to be able to even find truth in this age of lies. Truth seems like a needle in a hay stack. Don't be discouraged by those who would tell you it doesn't matter, or you will never find it. You will.

It is possible for all to find it if we ask, seek and knock Yashua will guide us by his spirit into all truth. He could give it all to us at once, but for me I think it would have boggled my mind. At times it is hard even now to wrap my mind around what I have been shown, but I know he is faithful to those who are obedient.

Deception is comfortable and in it you are accepted by the majority of the religious people.  There is no persecution in the religious sector, (they have their little fake drama going on like separation of church and state to keep the blind occupied) but when you step out of the comfort zone into the real truth it causes a riot. If it does not insight war than you can bet you have not found truth. Yashua caused an uproar everywhere he went. The world is comfortable with the god they created.

It is the truth they hate. When you uncover it perpare to be an outcast, but rejoice also. The stuff they teach in churches is dead. The world has been brain washed as has America. America was not found on found on godly truths. It was founded on some godly truths mixed in with pagan beliefs. Washington, Ben Franklin, and Jefferson were Masons and much of the Mason theology and symbolism can be found plastered all over our landmarks, money and businesses. This is just the tip of the iceberg and if you go deeper the truth is very frightening. More so than any slasher film out there.

Society is comfortable with the lie for the masses created over time. The stage is set and the whole world is a sleep. The churches of the south are expecting a great revival and others await the rapture. 

Every single concept that is out there such as Christmas, Easter, Sunday, their jesus and their fairy tales have lulled them into a peasceful slumber. Only there is no peace and they are about to find this out.  

Thanks for reading this winded blog and I hope to get to know you all better.