Brother Berean,

Most of those who discredited Paul do fail to do in a more rational manner. Most do so due to emotional problems.

I have emotional problems too. Who dont have emotional problems?

Here, you seem to have a stronger emotional problem. Please do not let the emotional problems to burn you up. I'd rather kneel or lie down to weep, repent any possible sin and pray when I am hurt.

Lets overcome our emotional problems in a humble way. Those who truly keep the Torah of GOD are never pride and self-_style_d.

Who really love GOD with all heart, all soul, all mind, all strength? Who really love others as themselves? FEW.

IF Few, then GOD are indeed righteous and just and respect no one's person.

It is not he who receives the Torah gets most blessed but he who really keeps the Torah. GOD requires more when He gives more. If He gives one less, He requires less. All those principles are in the Torah.

The bottom line for us Messianic gentiles is to keep the Ten Commandments that are the summary and bottom lines of the two Great Commandments. Yeshua says, if we do these, we will have eternal Life.

The key barrier for one to keep the commandments of GOD is selfness. As long as we keep the selfness, we cannot keep the two Great Commandments.

Yeshua teaches that only those who forsake all in the world and carry their own cross are worthy of being His disciples.

So, how many are worthy? We should start from our hearts.

Believe the Teachings of Yeshua into our hearts, do what Yeshua teaches, including repent, we shall be baptized with the Holy Spirit and born again.

The Spiritual baptism gives the power to cleanse our heart, including the selfishness, lust, and all dirty things.

Brother, I believe that few get the spiritual baptism. So how precious it is!

GOD bless you.

Jing